Somedays are just bad days and they are only born to be cried, nothing else. Today was a bad day and I cried it from 7am.
All the ungiving hugs, the unspoken words, all the love that was gone, the longing - cried them all. The urgent need of a hug, the kiss my neck won't feel, the absolute need of arms around me, a lap, a shoulder, a small piece of skin against mine, a belly, a buzzum for pillow - all cried.
The knowing that no-one will be waiting for me at home at the end of the day, the food that will be cooked for one, my shower that nobody will watch, the new Chopin cd that only my hears will listen, my new sexy underware that no-one will feel and the sound of the words i love you on my back as i fell asleep that won't see the day - cried it all.
Cried from 7am till now. Cried with good friends that held me, cried in bed in the middle of the afternoon, cried on the phone and while having a cup of coffee, accepting that somedays are just bad and being strong everyday is exhausting.
All the ungiving hugs, the unspoken words, all the love that was gone, the longing - cried them all. The urgent need of a hug, the kiss my neck won't feel, the absolute need of arms around me, a lap, a shoulder, a small piece of skin against mine, a belly, a buzzum for pillow - all cried.
The knowing that no-one will be waiting for me at home at the end of the day, the food that will be cooked for one, my shower that nobody will watch, the new Chopin cd that only my hears will listen, my new sexy underware that no-one will feel and the sound of the words i love you on my back as i fell asleep that won't see the day - cried it all.
Cried from 7am till now. Cried with good friends that held me, cried in bed in the middle of the afternoon, cried on the phone and while having a cup of coffee, accepting that somedays are just bad and being strong everyday is exhausting.
Still crying oppened the internet browser on the phone where I'm writting now and I discover this. I have no idea when or how or who manage to steal my phone for a few seconds to leave me this search on the browser, but thank you. It meant the world to me.
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